Ch. 13
Of anxiety.
When I see any one anxious, I say, what does
this man mean? Unless he wanted something or other not in his own power, how could he
still be anxious? A musician, for instance, feels no
anxiety while he is singing by himself; but when he
appears upon the stage he does, even if his voice be
ever so good, or he plays ever so well. For what he
wishes is not only to sing well, but likewise to gain
applause. But this is not in his own power. In
short, where his skill lies, there is his courage. Bring
any ignorant person, and he does not mind him;
but in the point which he neither understands nor
has studied, there he is anxious.
"What point is that?"
He does not understand what a multitude is, nor
what the applause of a multitude. He has learnt,
indeed, how to sound bass and treble; but what the
applause of the many is, and what force it has in
life, he neither understands nor has studied. Hence
he must necessarily tremble and turn pale. I cannot indeed say that a man is no musician, when I
see him afraid; but I can say something else, and
indeed many things. And first of all I call him a
stranger, and say, this man does not know in what
country he is; and though he has lived here so long,
he is ignorant of the laws and customs of the state,
and what is permitted and what not; nor has he
ever consulted any legal adviser, who might tell and
explain to him the laws. But no man writes a will
without knowing how it ought to be written, or consulting some one who knows; nor does he rashly
sign a bond, or give security. Yet he indulges his
desires and aversions, exerts his pursuits, intentions,
and resolutions, without consulting any legal adviser
about the matter.
" How do you mean, without a legal adviser? "
He knows not when he chooses what is not allowed
him, and does not choose what is necessary; and he
knows not what is his own, and what belongs to
others; for if he did know he would never be hindered, would never be restrained, would never be
anxious.
"How so?"
Why, does any one fear things that are not evils?
" No."
Does any one fear things that seem evils indeed,
but which it is in his own power to prevent?
" No, surely."
If, then, the things independent of our will are
neither good nor evil, and all things that do depend
on will are in our own power, and can neither be
taken away from us nor given to us unless we please,
what room is there left for anxiety? But we are
anxious about this paltry body or estate of ours, or
about what Caesar thinks, and not at all about anything internal. Are we ever anxious not to take up a
false opinion? No; for this is within our own power.
Or not to follow any pursuit contrary to nature?
No, nor this. When, therefore, you see any one pale
with anxiety, just as the physician pronounces from
the complexion that such a patient is disordered in
the spleen, and another in the liver, so do you likewise say, this man is disordered in his desires and
aversions; he cannot walk steadily; he is in a fever.
70r nothing else changes the complexion, or causes
trembling, or sets the teeth chattering.
He crouching walks, or squats upon his heels. Homer, Iliad, xiii. 281. - H.
Therefore Zeno,31 when he was to meet Antigonus,
felt no anxiety. For over that which he prized, Antigonus had no power; and those things over which
he had power, Zeno did not regard. But Antigonus
felt anxiety when he was to meet Zeno, and with
reason, for he was desirous to please him; and this
was external ambition. But Zeno was not solicitous
to please Antigonus; for no one skilful in any art is
solicitous to please a person unskilful.
" I am solicitous to please you."
For what? Do you know the rules by which one
man judges of another? Have you studied to understand what a good and what a bad man is, and how
each becomes such? Why, then, are not you yourself
a good man?
" In what respect am I not? "
Because no good man laments or sighs or groans;
no good man turns pale and trembles and says,
" How will such a one receive me; how will he hear
me?" As he thinks fit, foolish man. Why do you
trouble yourself about what belongs to others? Is it
not his fault if he receives you ill?
" Yes, surely."
And can one person be in fault and another the
sufferer?
" No."
Why, then, are you anxious about what belongs to
others?
"Well; but I am anxious how I shall speak to
him."
What, then; cannot you speak to him as you
will?
" But I am afraid I shall be disconcerted."
If you were going to write down the name of Dion,
should you be afraid of being disconcerted?
"By no means."
What is the reason? Is it because you have
learned how to write?
Yes."
And if you were going to read, would it not be
exactly the same?
" Exactly."
What is the reason?
"Because every art gives a certain assurance and
confidence on its own ground."
Have you not learned, then, how to speak? And
what else did you study at school?
" Syllogisms and convertible propositions."
For what purpose? Was it not in order to talk
properly? And what is that but to talk seasonably
and discreetly and intelligently, and without flutter or
hesitation, and, by means of all this, with courage?
" Very true."
When, therefore, you go into the field on horseback, are you anxious on being matched against
one who is on foot, - you being practised and he
unpractised?
" Ay, but the person has power to kill me."
Then speak the truth, O unfortunate ! and be not
arrogant, nor take the philosopher upon you, nor conceal from yourself who are your masters; but while
you are thus to be held by the body, follow the
strongest. Socrates, indeed, had studied how to
speak, who talked in such a manner to tyrants and
judges, and in prison. Diogenes32
had studied how
to speak, who talked in such a manner to Alexander,
to Philip, to the pirates, to the person who bought
him. This belonged to those who had studied the
matter; who had courage. But do you go where
you belong and remain there. Retire into some corner, and there sit and weave syllogisms, and propose
them to others. For there is not in you a man who
can rule the city.